Broken

Someone lied to me recently. Someone I care about.

It wasn't just a little lie, like that dress looks good on you when you don't think it does. It was big. Way too big to comprehend why or how or what was in it for them to do it. Except, perhaps what was in it for them was to avoid the inconvenience of the truth.

Lies break trust, I told them. Lies hurt.

They didn't believe me.

You're over-reacting, they said. Blowing it out of proportion.

Truth is, that lie, or series of lies as it turned out to be, broke many things, including my heart.

A broken heart is an open heart and an open heart is a loving heart.

It is the beauty of finding truth amidst lies. In the crystal clear certainty that enters after the lies have cleared is the knowing what to do, what must be done, what happens next. And in the knowing is the certitude, I will be alright. I am okay. I will move through this and still have the things I cherish most about me, especially my truth.

I am a radiant woman igniting joy in a world of wonder.

I am a fearless woman touching hearts and opening minds to set spirits free.

I am free.

Broken down to the sum of all their parts, lies never add up to truth. They just add up to hurt and pain and confusion and sadness. All of which will pass. And in their passing a relationship ends. In its ending is the knowing, Relationships need trust. To sustain them, nurture them, deepen them. Relationships need truth.

Lies cannot destroy truth. Lies destroy relationships.

Broken hearts heal. In their breaking open, light enters. As Leonard Cohen sings, There is a crack in everything / That's how the light gets in.

What was revealed in this crack is a bigger crack breaking up the foundation of something that was not strong enough to withstand the one thing that was pulling it apart. Lies.

It is a good thing, this breaking open. It is truth getting in. Healing starting to flow. Hope starting to rise above the waters, overflowing the banks of tears that have been shed to wash away the pain and sorrow.

When lies break apart truth awakens in the light of a new day breaking open on the horizon.

I have been broken. Many times in my life. And each time I've been broken, I open up to the greater truth of who I am.

I open up to the greater wonder of who I can be when I let go of lying to myself that I am responsible for anyone's happiness but my own. In being responsible for mine, I trust others to be responsible for theirs.

In my opening up I've found treasures within me that were hidden beneath the shell of my holding myself together with the lie, I love you, exactly the way you are. In truth, I love you has often meant, Now will you change? Here, let me help you become who I want you to be.

In breaking open, I let go of the belief I can love someone enough they will see their truth shining in the light of all the lies they tell themselves to keep their hearts protected from feeling.

No one can see the beauty of who they are unless they open their eyes to the truth within their hearts.

I am not powerful enough to break through the lies surrounding someone else's heart.

I am powerful enough to break through to the truth within mine.

I am broken, open. I am alive and well living this one special moment in the beauty and wonder of being In Love, with who I am, exactly where I'm at, exactly where I'm meant to be. In Love, I stand in beauty. In Love, I am free.

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It is a Blog Carnival Tuesday hosted by Peter Pollock. Today's one word prompt is Broken. It's a great word and there's some great writing and thoughts and ideas being shared over at Peter's place.

Click on over to Peter's place. Get inspired. Move yourself beyond the edges of your comfort zone and write a phrase or two on the word Broken. Share your thoughts and share in the thoughts of others.

Your life will be richer for the sharing!

Anthem: Leonard Cohen