Dusk settles in.
Under stress I slide into avoidance, spinning plates where hitting home runs cannot happen because I am too busy running around the bases.
It is a thoughtless, mindless movement I consciously think about not doing -- and then catch myself doing, again and again as I run faster to catch the ball, falling ever faster behind... the 8 ball of life.
Avoidance strengthens fear.
I am learning.
To avoid fear I must do the things I fear doing.
Otherwise, I'm thinking about what I fear more than what I'm doing -- and living without being conscious of my doing is unhealthy for me.
Like most of us, I fear change. Yet, as a boss of mine long ago used to say, "Change is here to stay."
I'm in this game of life for the long run. May as well embrace change and give up fearing it.
Avoidance builds resistance.
Or at least acknowledge my fear of change creates ripples of unease in my world when I let my fear push me out of courage into avoidance.
Last week I took care of a personal finance issue that I needed to do for quite sometime. Score one for me.
Today, I'm having lunch with someone I've avoided as I had bad news for them on a project they hoped to direct and didn't get. Score one for me.
These are 'small things' that have appeared large on my horizon, muddying up clear thinking, clouding my vision of possibility and creating a world of excuses I keep breathing into as I avoid taking care of business.
Avoidance weakens my integrity.
Clearing them up makes room for possibility to arise, for my forecast to be sunny. Clearing them up makes room for the universe to move in and support me in the big things I want to do to create more of what I want in my life.
Because, in my avoidance of clearing up small things (as they appear on my horizon - not after I've let them grow into mountains of resistance) I give the small things more mindspace. And in that mindspace, I have little time or energy to breathe life into my dreams.
Avoidance undermines my dreams.
To live a dreamers life come true I must keep my vision clear, my thinking sharp and my perspective open.
Here's to living today free of avoidance rising into fear.
Here's to living my best life yet today!