Thursday, April 12, 2012

Love Always Wins

Everything you own should have value, either because it's functional or beautiful or you just love it. Peter Walsh

What an interesting question -- to look at what clutters my office, my home, my life and ask, "What value does this bring to my life? Is it functional, beautiful, or do I simply love it for no reason other than it fills me with joy, peace, gentleness...?"

As I prepare to shift my world the value of the objects and things in my life take on added meaning. Big shifts are in the winds. Big changes are a'comin'.

We are preparing to sell our home. 

I am readying myself to move cities.

There, I've said it.

It's official.

I am moving.

C.C., my beloved has been living in Saskatoon for the past year. His intent was to move his head office back here to Calgary sooner, rather than later, but, his success and busy-ness in Saskatoon has made it a challenge to even think about relocating head office at this time. 

And so, after much discussion, pondering, weighing of options, ideas and alternatives we have decided to relocate our home to Saskatoon.

A big move. A big change. A big difference.

A big adventure.

I am excited. Nervous. Scared. Uneasy. And, filled with anticipation.

I have no idea what the future will bring -- I do know that in this moment, I am willing and able to make this move because...

Love always wins.

And Love is what I value most in my life.

Being apart has been part of the adventure of our relationship. Being apart has held value for both of us. It has helped us understand the importance of our relationship. It has deepened our commitment to being together. It has given rise for us to find new and meaningful ways to deepen intimacy, to treasure moments spent together, to invest in 'we' time everyday.

It has not been easy this past year. 

It has not been hard.

It has been what it is -- a time when our living arrangements shifted, when we both shifted how we communicate, how we connect, how we are -- as partners and lovers. As two people in a committed relationship sharing distance and time together.

I am moving and in the move I will take with me the things I value most -- those tangible effects of my life that add value -- stripping away the clutter that consumes space, I shall divest myself of the unnecessary to carry only that which is necessary for me to be surrounded by the things I love most in life.

Yet, it is not the things that make my life so rich. It is the people I hold dear. The people who fill my heart and my world with such love and joy my heart is always breaking open in love. And while in the moving I shall be physically moving away from the people I love most in the world I know we shall never be apart because I carry them always in my heart.

And as C.C. reminds me, "They are only an hour's flight away."

Big changes are a'happenin'. And I am valuing the time to reflect, to divest and to connect with what I value most in my life -- the people who add such richness and joy and love to my world.

And in the continuing adventure of my life, I carry with me the richness of my world in the people who fill my heart with love with every breath I take.

I'm moving cities and in my heart I know, no matter where I am, Love always wins. 


Josie Two Shoes said...

Almost four years ago I moved from a city in New Mexico where I had lived for 20 years to start a new life with John in Texas. Scary...yes! Also exhilarating and the best move I've ever made in my life. I am excited for you, and I wish you wonderful new adventures together in the next chapter of your lives! You are right, Love always wins!

Louise Gallagher said...

Thanks Josie! I really appreciate your words and encouragement! Hugs

Maureen said...

Deeply happy for you, dear friend!

Alyssa Wright said...

Wow -- you beat us to the big decision, and we didn't even know you were thinking of it. Sounds very exciting, Louise -- a grand adventure!

Jennifer Richardson said...

Oh how wonderful for you!!!
(Saskatoon....I've loved that
name for years!)
Love always wins. Yes and amen:)
I wish you wind and wings
as you walk through this transition
and peace,
always, always peace.
Cheering in your corner,

Anonymous said...

Oh no! You've put it in writing so now it must really be true. I kept thinking that it wouldn't really happen and if I didn't see it in your writings then how could you possibly relocate!! We 3 sisters will now be in 3 different provinces..I know, I know, they are all, only 1 hour away from Calgary by plane! I guess I just don't like change very much but I know that this makes the most sense for you and C.C. I wish you only good things, dear sister of mine, but honestly, I'd rather you didn't leave (there, I've said it or rather typed it). Love you lots, Jackie

Fi said...

This news warms my heart - I often thought about you and CC in different places and wondered how you did it when you spoke of him with such obvious love.
Happy for you and change is good - change reminds us we're alive.


Anonymous said...

oh man...i was hoping you were gonna say "oregon".

Ruth said...

Wow. Yes big changes, but your head and heart sound like you are in a good space about it. Then I read Jackie's comment, and I felt the impact the move will have on those you leave behind. Yet as you say, close by flight still. But it is not the same, everything will change, and this will be good for you and your loved ones in ways you don't even know yet.

Yes, moves are so good for that clutter. I was just talking with my friend sitting in my work office about it last evening, for we are leaving our 100-year-old building to move across campus. I have a glorious old high-ceiling office, and it is full of junk I need to throw out! Moving is so good for this, but a lot of work.

I'm excited for you, because I believe you welcome change for what it is, what it will be.

Louise Gallagher said...

Thank you everyone! it is a big change -- an adventure -- and a leaving of what is comfortable, and beautiful, in my life.

But... beauty is everywhere (and Oregon is soooo beautiful!) and one of the things I uncovered in my Soul of a Pilgrim course is -- My Heart is My Home.

and yes Jackie -- it is hard :(.

Hugs to you.

Anonymous said...

the city of bridges will invigorate you, as any new place does, to spread your wings, to do new things ... and you can write from anywhere! ...

best of luck in your move,


S. Etole said...

Wishing you all the very best in this transition.

I've had company all week so am busy catching up today.

Diane Walker said...

What a GORGEOUS photo of you! Clearly you are enriched in his company, and so will be the richer for being together. I'm so excited for you!