It has been over two weeks since I posted here. How time flies.
I sometimes wonder.... if I didn't post here any more would I miss it. And then I realize -- I would. Because this place was my launching pad for healing -- deep, deep emotional healing. From the past. From the sadness within me. From the events that clung like fog to my thinking.
I didn't realize it at the time, five years ago when I started writing here. I didn't realize how connected I was still to the sadness and horror of those days when I lost my way in the arms of a man whose love was not true.
Funny isn't it how we don't realize what was until we're no longer in the place of being there. In those times. In that place. In that thinking.
Since beginning to write here, so much has changed. So much has evolved, shifted, opened up, expanded.
I have learned through writing here that I am my thoughts. And what I write reflects my deep belief that we are all miracles of life. Life is miraculous.
I have learned writing here that we are all on this earth to live as our highest expression of life. We are here to be the sacred nature of our soul's desire to express itself through our beauty, truth, holiness and divinity. We are here to be miracles of life.
I have learned that my thinking can keep me playing small, or open me up to my magnificence.
I have learned that trusting in the Universe is the foundation of my belief, life is filled with limitless possibilities and I am powerful beyond my wildest imaginings when I trust in the Universe. The Universe is not against me it is always there, encouraging me to trust in the evolutionary impulse to evolve and grow and expand and become. To be all that I am when I let go of fearing the Universe is not with me. The Universe is with me. For me. Of me. It is in the best interests of humanity that I shine, that you shine, that we all be our greatest expression of Love.
I have learned that fear will always want to steal my peace of mind and being courageous is the only antidote to fear.
I have learned that people are amazing. People make the world a better place.
And I have learned that Love is the answer. Love always wins.
I am blessed to have had this place as I moved more deeply into living joyfully in the rapture of now. I am blessed to have shared this journey with you, to have your words of support, encouragement, strength.
It is amazing to me the friendships I have made through this virtual world. It is amazing and it brings me joy, warmth, pleasure to know so many of you are my friends, my companions, my guides on this journey.
As I look back at over five years of writing almost every day here, I am in awe of the journey, and the mystery we have shared. I am in awe.
It's been a wonderful experience writing at A Year of Making a Difference. The focus and the subject are very important to me. But, what I've realized is that there is still so much more to explore in my life as well.
Why, just last week at meditation I dove deeply into the waters of self-discovery and found myself in the ocean of humanity once again.
Today I spoke with a woman whose mother just passed away. "We are all part of the ocean of life," she said in response to my question about her well-being. "Though my mother is gone, we're still connected. The essential part of ourselves will always be connected, if not on this physical plane, then some other place."
And I felt the ocean of humanity wash over me again.
We are all connected.
We are all spirit. We are all human. We are all miraculous beings of life and light.
It is a deep realization that has continued to open up within me the possibility and the knowing that there is nothing to fear in this world. Not failure. Not success. Not falling. Not flying. Not life. Not death.
There is nothing to fear. For no matter what happens on this earthly plane, we are eternal. We are soul. One humanity. One spirit. One people.
I haven't written here for over two weeks, and I have missed this space. I have missed the reflective nature of who I am when I am here, musing with you, sharing with you my wonder and joy in being alive.
I have missed you.
And.... yet, just as there is nothing to fear, there is nothing to miss. We are all connected.
Isn't life just the most awesome thing you can imagine? I think so!